August 31, 2016

Depression & the Ministry – Part 1

by Eric Davis
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“Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me?” (Psalm 42:5).

These are not the words of a spiritual infant. They are not the cries of a neophyte believer. This was a spiritual leader, involved in the daily ministry of the word of God to the people of God. Even so, his struggles with sorrow are deep.

It’s no secret: spiritual leaders can battle with depression. The more pastors I talk to, the more common this seems. I’ve worked jobs from lumber mills to heavy construction to engineering to research labs, and I have never encountered sorrow in those like the pastorate. Pastors, if you struggle with sorrow, chances are, things are pretty normal. Christians, chances are, your pastor has, or will have, bouts with soul-sorrow. It’s just normal.

And we need to avoid parochial conclusions when it comes to battles with sorrow. The presence of depression does not always mean the presence of raging sin. Strong saving faith and deep discouragement are often found in the same soul. Ed Welch has rightly said, “It is a myth that faith is always smiling. The truth is that faith often feels like the very ordinary process of dragging one foot in front of the other because we are conscious of God” (Depression: A Stubborn Darkness, 31). Jeremiah had his bouts (Jer. 9:1-2, Lam. 3:48). Elijah probably did too (1 Kings 19:4). Though Paul always rejoiced, he was also sorrowful (2 Cor. 6:10). The great apostle even experienced “great sorrow and unceasing grief” (Rom. 9:2). And Jesus was a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief (Isa. 53:3). Likely he could have been diagnosed with clinical depression by the standards of our modern psychiatrists. Charles Spurgeon said, “No sin is necessarily connected with sorrow of heart, for Jesus Christ our Lord once said, ‘My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death.’ There was no sin in him, and consequently none in his deep depression.”

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In fact, it’s reasonable to be concerned at times for the individual who seems constantly giddy. If we were in heaven, that would be understandable. But for the spiritual-minded individual with the mind of Christ, they see the cursed world as it is and care for its good. There is sin within and without. Brokenness within and without. Death within and without. Deception within and without. The world, the flesh, and the devil do their thing. Those with the illuminating presence of the Holy Spirit carry the instinctive response of righteousness to unrighteousness, whether within or without. It’s impossible, then, for God’s people to never experience sorrow. Pastor, if you struggle with discouragement, it very well could be due to your love for souls.

A pastor without sorrow may not be sufficiently acquainted with the fallenness of the world. He could be out of touch; perhaps not adequately caring about the destruction all around. We could almost say that seasons of sorrow are inevitable and necessary for biblical pastors.

And to be sure, depression is often due to sin (cf. Ps 32:3-4). We may be harboring things needing confession. We might be craving an idol that we are not getting (cf. 2 Sam. 13:4). Or we may be getting something we are not wanting. A soul check-up is necessary in sorrowful seasons. There is no virtue in discouragement. And seasons of sorrow are no excuse for us to wallow in self-pity or ferment in our bitterness.

But oftentimes, sorrow is just the norm. The purpose here is not to be a Debbie-downer, but to consider why it’s normal for many pastors to battle with discouragement. With that, here are a few reasons why church leaders may experience sorrow:

1. Understanding the weight of the work can bring sorrow.

Pastors and church leaders work under the gaze of the highest ranking individual in the universe. For their quality of ministry to the souls in the church, they will give an account to Jesus Christ (Heb. 13:17). For the quality and accuracy of biblical teaching, they will be held to stricter scrutiny (2 Tim. 2:15, Jas. 3:1). For the finished quality of his ministry, the final assaying fires will be lit (1 Cor. 3:12-15).

Christ commands leaders to the highest personal quality. In personal character, they must maintain the highest excellence (1 Tim. 3:1-7, 4:16). In doctrinal fidelity, they must maintain the highest accuracy (1 Tim. 4:16, Titus 1:9).

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Every day pastors look out into their delegated flocks and fields and see eternity. They see the decisions people make. They see the consequences those decisions will have. God gives them eyes to see that every soul is heading in a direction towards heaven or hell. Nothing in between. And pastors are commanded to do something about it.

They are to spread the aroma of Christ. To some in their midst, it’s the offensive smell of death. To others, life. And he can do nothing to alter the response. No wonder depression can set in. “Who is adequate for these things?” (2 Cor. 2:16).

And yet, they may not say, “Well, I think I’ll choose a different way to lead; one involving less pressure.” To do that would be to abandon their charge altogether.

To be sure, a pastor’s standing with God depends not upon his ministerial importance. He knows that the impeccable Christ alone is his representative righteousness. Even so, due to his love for Christ and love for souls, he desires personal excellence in ministry. Combine that with the weight of the work, and bouts with soul-sorrow are normal.

2. Understanding personal weakness can bring sorrow.

When a pastor is being faithful to his Lord, every day of ministry is a reminder of his frailty. He’s weak in every way. The work yells out, “You are physically feeble! You are spiritually feeble!” It’s not if he’s weak, but whether or not he’s coming to terms with his weakness. It’s all so humbling. Sometimes he thinks that he’s finally reached bottom in his personal weakness. But give it another day or two, and he’s weaker still.

He can’t elect souls. He can’t draw souls. He can’t regenerate souls. He can’t sanctify souls. He can’t keep souls. He can’t de-apostacize souls. He’s weak.

He falls asleep. He gets sick. He forgets. He lays an egg in the pulpit. He stumbles over his words. He preaches too long, too short, too boring, too formal, too casual. He is too harsh, too soft, too patient, too quick. He is weak and it’s more obvious to him than perhaps anyone else.

He pours out more than he has and is. And yet, he knows it’s inadequate.

It all drives him to discouragement at times. It’s just normal. He knows that his weakness is essential to his usefulness (2 Cor. 12:9-10), but the awareness of it makes it hard.

3. Understanding the depth of his own sin can bring sorrow.

By God’s design, the pastor is in a peculiar place. The Holy Spirit illuminates his soul. Yet that illumination reveals his own lurking spiritual rot. He is given a substantial spiritual sensitivity. Yet that sensitivity permits him to feel his remaining spiritual callousness. God-given maturity gives way to comprehend his secret idolatries.

7852066624_3ca9bc1f54He sees the slew of sin within. He’s tempted to crave applause. He’s tempted to hate critics. He’s tempted to favor his fans. He’s tempted to write off complainers. He’s tempted to solicit approval. He’s prayed imprecatory prayers. He’s treated the well-known with respect, and the not-known with contempt. And many, many days, he’s been cold towards his Lord.

With the Puritan, he cries in secret, “I confess and bewail my deficiencies…I mourn my numberless failures…I am utterly ashamed that I am what I am in myself…Destroy, O God, the dark guest within!”

He rejoices that there is no condemnation in Christ. But, because he loves his Lord and wants to glorify him, his remaining sin can solicit sorrow (cf. Matt. 5:4). He knows Psalm 51:17: “The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.” But, his lingering lack of holiness will never cease to grieve him.

4. Understanding the depth of sin in others around him can solicit sorrow.

Every church is filled with sinners. It’s normal for sinners to sin. But for the spiritual leader, it’s a frequent source of sorrow. It has to be. He cares for people with spiritual care. Sin destroys. He labors for their up-building. He is a worker with them for their joy (2 Cor. 1:24). But sin inherently robs the joy of Christ.

He knows that he’s not the Holy Spirit. He knows that God will complete the work he’s begun (Phil. 1:6). But because the Holy Spirit has equipped him with both the eyes to see and a heart to care, others’ sin is a frequent source of sorrow.

It pains him to see God’s people aloof towards Christ. He’s never given birth, but at times he agonizes like it in soul for the sanctification of God’s people (Gal. 4:19). “Who is led into sin without my intense concern?” (2 Cor. 11:29).

5. Understanding the theological error around him can cause sorrow. 

This is a major source of discouragement for church leaders.

By design and command, he walks with a watchfulness among the flock. He is concerned for the purity of the minds. Theological error is often an error in the knowledge of God. The great good for the sheep is purity in the knowledge of God. We worship God with the mind. If the mind is misinformed about God, then we worship an idol; a god of our own making. Embraced theological error and idolatry can have a nasty symbiotic relationship.

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And he knows that embraced theological error is far more than matters on paper. Rather, it is an error of the soul. Rarely is theological error morally neutral. It’s not coincidental that the young man succumbing to lust prefers a Christ who is Savior but not Lord. It’s not correlation-less that the man marinating in pride prefers a God who is not sovereign in salvation. It’s not happenstance that the woman who believes that Christ came to make us feel wonderful about ourselves rejects the doctrine of depravity and has a low view of sanctification.

Further, theological error is not a victimless infraction. So go the pulpits, so go the pews. Pulpits gush forth error and the people seem to love it so. Hordes of sheep are lead down harmful paths, often smiling all the way. Some days, it’s all the pastor can do to keep himself from bursting upon the false flocks and snatching one or two from the danger.

Bottom line: the pastor experiences sorrow over doctrinal error because he cares for the glory of God and the good of souls.

Many other reasons can lie behind sorrow experienced in the ministry. In part two of this post, we will consider some of them and make some conclusions. Suffice it to say, sorrow is almost inherent to the ministry. For those who care about souls and the supremacy of Christ, discouragement will not be abnormal this side of heaven.

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Eric is the pastor of Cornerstone Church in Jackson Hole, WY. He and his team planted the church in 2008. Leslie is his wife of 14 years and mother of their 3 children.
  • Jason

    I think maturity results in these sources of sorrow for all believers. Every member of the body ought to feel responsible for the care of the church. The fact that so many of us have grown calloused probably makes our elders feel the sorrow more though.

    • Eric Davis

      Good insight, Jason. Agreed, thanks

  • calebkolstad

    I am very thankful for this article. I read a few things lately that were related to this issue that were imbalanced to say the very least.

    2 Corinthians is such a paradox. On one hand Paul is so down (2 Cor. 1:8-9a, 4:8-10a) he cannot even return to Corinth (without knowing if they have first received his admonitions). Paul was certainly no wimp (note 2 Cor. 12); perish the thought. Outside of Christ, Paul may have suffered more for the gospel and the Church than any other minister. And yet Paul also talks in 2 Corinthians about the unparalleled joys/privileges of being a minister of the New Covenant (note 2 Cor 3-4). Life and ministry is sometimes both/and rather than either/or. I remember John MacArthur saying that he was so glad he did not preach 2 Corinthians early in his ministry because one cannot really capture the pathos of Paul unless they have first suffered deeply in ministry. Paul’s experiences shepherding the flock at Corinth is so much a part of his two inspired letters (1-2 Cor.).

    If the Bible was not inspired blog writers would certainly edit and critique large portions of Scripture. Consider Moses’ burden of leading the wilderness generation. Or King David’s lament when he talks about the deep, deep pains of personal betrayal (Psalm 55:12-14) or his deep sorrow over the guilt of his own sin (Ps. 32, 51). Israel’s hymnbook (the Psalter) includes many psalms of lament. Or the weeping prophet Jeremiah (Jer. 1-2, 20). I often think about the positive and negative implications of Hebrews 13:17- As with parenting it can be grievous to the soul when attempting to shepherd unruly souls over months and years… 1 Thess. 5:12-13 is an inspired mandate as much as 1 Peter 5:1-4 is. “Let them do this with joy and not grief…”

    I have found that pastors who have not had such personal experiences tend to be critical, condescending, and judgmental. The same can be true with regards to parents who have never wept their way through a season of rebellion in the life of one of their children. Experience is a great teacher and heartache, depression, and pain can be wonderful tutors.

    When I listened to C.J. Mahaney’s sermon at T4G it was obvious that this broken man could not have preached this sermon the way he did without going through a number of low lows. When C.J. talked about “cold, dark nights” it was so powerful and so comforting. http://t4g.org/media/2016/04/sustained-in-suffering-by-the-saga-of-job/ The same is true of Jerry Bridges in his masterpiece, Trusting God: Even When Life Hurts. https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00IDHWSS4/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1#nav-subnav Bridge’s personal heartbreaks bleed into every page of Trusting God. As you noted Charles Spurgeon suffered a great deal during his ministry. So much so that he was out of the pulpit for long periods of time through much of his ministry. One of the sweetest things I ever read was a letter Spurgeon’s elders wrote him requiring him to take time away in order to rest and heal. It was in Volume 2 of his autobiography (the Full Harvest) that I encountered this letter-http://www.christianbook.com/charles-spurgeon-autobiography-harvest-volume-2/charles-spurgeon/9780851511825/pd/1511821?dv=c&en=google&event=SHOP&kw=books-20-40%7C1511821&p=1179710&gclid=CP3Zxoej7M4CFQYdaQod0AMDDQ

    Many years ago, during a particularly rough period in my ministry I found Spurgeon’s “the Ministers Fainting Fits” to be an absolute God-send. Interestingly, I had read the same address during seminary and was not really moved…imagine that? 🙂 http://preacherboy316pt2.blogspot.com/2014/02/spiritual-discouragement.html
    http://www.the-highway.com/articleSept99.html

    Though I don’t agree with all of the commentary of the author the following book catalogs a number of helpful quotes by Spurgeon on internal suffering/depression, etc. “Bright Days, Dark Nights”- https://www.amazon.com/Bright-Days-Dark-Nights-Emotional/dp/080106192X

    Anyways, I appreciate your personal example. Thanks for writing this helpful piece.

    • Maranatha

      Dear calebkolstad, you wrote: “Experience is a great teacher and heartache, depression, and pain can be wonderful tutors.” – Yes, yes and yes again. There is no other way ANY man will learn his lesson from God. All of us will ONLY learn Gods most precious truth from suffering. If a man does not suffer (claiming to be a christian) there must be sth wrong, see Hebr 8,12 “But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.”

      What I seem to hear too often in contemporary church though, is a) any possible comparison of biblical suffering of the soul with worldly and deeply unholy “psychology” and b) that these worldly forms of (naturally!) hopeless “depression” would be a rather consistent part of christian living and (what is worst IMO) that c) this b)-kind of “christian depression” could take even years of pastoral or brotherhood counseling to be cured. Every a) b) and c) opinion in today’s church sermons is absolutely not covered by sriptures. It equalizes worldly psychology to biblical counseling and makes the pastor (or simply the conseling brother or sister) equal to the ungodly therapist. Thus, the Bible is treated like some advice literature and the depressed christian is made dependent on man, not on God.

      Many so-called “depressions” could be cured instantly if the christian would more trust in God and neither in himself or in other men. The article above seems to me more “self- or men-centered” in its arguments, not God-centered. That is the reason why the pastor has then to suffer more than he ‘usually’ (i.e. biblically) would or should. But that is not the problem of God, it’s the problem of man who does not trust God. In this case, the pastor gives more a sissy than a shining example for the flock. He should cure his personal sufferings in dialogue with God, clear the situation and THEN shepherd again in good mental health – not lamenting his sufferings in front of the flock, who will instantly adopt his view and habit. In the end of all this, we have a kind of new doctrine that is accepted far and wide throughout the church. That is what we have today regarding the topic of “depression” – as far as my personal monitoring is concerned.

      Your clear or nick name is “Caleb” – so think of the two scouts Joshua and Caleb, how their view on the land of Canaan was and what the other ten scouts said, how their influence on the whole people was (Numbers 13,32-34) when they “spread among the Israelites a bad report” when they claimed that they “looked like grasshoppers IN OUR OWN EYES…”. A pastor who wails his own (temporal and God-given!) depression among the flock, will have the same result of chapter 14 there: “That night all the members of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. … (they begin weeping as well) … Wouldn’t it be better go back to Egypt? (they wish themselves go back to the world again where they will be pampered by therapists and confirmed in their own grief, sorrow and blamelessness like the world, too) … We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt. (there you have it: they grumble against the pastor, wishing themselves a worldly, egyptian-style leader instead of one that encourages them through Gods Word!)” In the end, they will confirm the word from 2 Timothy 4,3 and this will be the very end to every biblical fundament in pastoring.

      • calebkolstad

        Dear brother or sister Marantha. I do not generally respond to pseudo names in comment sections but will do so here.

        We agree on the benefits and blessings of Christian suffering. James 1, Rom 5, Hebrews 12.

        You are right about needing to be very careful about accepting tenants of secular psychology. Biblical counseling is the way to counsel people with spiritual struggles. I really appreciate ACBC.

        I don’t fully understand the connection you made between paragraph 2-3. I believe you are too harsh in some of your statements about “good mental health” and pastoring. The best of man are still men at best. I provided a few biblical case studies of wounded leaders in biblical and in church history. Paul was very depressed at times in his apostolic ministry as 2 Corinthians points out. His suffering as a result of shepherding the difficult flock at Corinth made Paul an even better Christian leader (See esp. 2 Cor 1-4 and 12).

        You are correct in that I don’t always live up to my my biblical namesake “Caleb.” What a courageous man of faith he was (Joshua 1:8-9). He is certainly someone I want to imitate more faithfully (1 Cor 11:1).

        I am thankful for Eric and this article he wrote. Blessings

        • Maranatha

          Dear brother Caleb, I am a sister (thought to have made that clear in postings re ‘Should I marry him’ recently). Perhaps sth I say about secular view of depression sounds harsh but I don’ t mean it. It is the truth that bothers me, not pleasing men but God (Gal 1,10). As a German, I am not accustomed to flattery as perhaps usual in the US. And from my personal background I really react “allergic” to any psychologizing expression because this is the very Antichrist, and a small portion of it ruins the whole bible (Gal 5,9 / 1Cor 5,6). Forgive me! 😉

          For more imitating the biblical Caleb, I can only encourage you, carry on!

      • Jane Hildebrand

        Marantha, perhaps you would do well to do a study on what it means to be merciful before you accuse others of not trusting God when they find themselves discouraged.

        “There will be no mercy for those who have not shown mercy to others.” (James 2:13)

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  • So well written! Thank you.

    • Eric Davis

      Thanks, Joe.

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